[NB] Old Notebooks

Today when I sat down with the ancestors, I started to get this mad little bug to tidy. That isn’t particularly surprising–the ancestors tend to like tidiness. But I found myself grabbing hold of this box that I have been carrying around for a few years without opening. As I finished sorting through it, I widened my efforts to its immediate neighbors.

That is when I came across the notebook that I thought lost. I can’t date it precisely, but it is from my first few years of college back in the mid-1990s. My best guess puts it somewhere in the 1995-1996 range. I had started it as a supplement to a philosophy course I was taking, but it became something very different the summer afterward.

Been thinking (as a note, the semester is over—the notebook was of limited usage)—seems that in much of the writings here I approached the thinkers in a far too confrontational manner; not only is this not useful (one does not water orchids with boiling water), but it is really antithetical to who I am. The attitude puts me outside myself, taking my ability to absorb and contemplate. Remember this.

Oh, yes, hello crazy little me. Whew, why did you think the academy was a good idea again?

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Ritual Time: Punctuated Equilibrium?

So, yeah, I do jabber on around spiritualist and gnostic practice. I circle in words and concepts without often zooming in to deal with the practical day-to-day matters that constitute my work. I don’t talk an awful lot about prayer or ritual, for example. That’s mostly because I am not sure about the value of such talk in this medium; it seems too fast and shallow.

If that sounds negative, I don’t mean it to. It just seems like the time in which ritual work unfolds and the time in which internet-use unfolds are quite different.

This brings me to something I want to talk about regarding practice and ideas of practice—time.

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